I've not actually been following all the Drama CDs because I'm never sure how much of them is canon and how much is not since there is already that one version where Suzaku murders his father because he thinks his father plans to murder Lelouch and Nunnally. So for now, I am just going by the anime itself.
However even if a 17 year old Suzaku canonically looking back thinks he went into the argument contemplating patricide, he was still 10 at the time and I just don't feel like a 10 year old has the mental faculties to think through this choice.
I do agree that everything is shades of gray, but I think it is obvious from the amount of guilt he feels that Suzaku does not really think this was the right choice.
I see the love as more maternal because of her last request for Suzaku to stay in school and from the way she demands Suzaku love her and the unconditional love she gives to him. She is in effect trying to bolster his self-esteem. It also then makes a lovely mirror and counterpoint to Marianne's death when Lelouch was a child.
What is a reasonable amount of time to effect change? I think to Suzaku if more people felt like him, then things would be more likely to change and I think he felt one person could make a difference. And yes, I think he did envision himself as a martyr and he might have been deluded, but that's not the same as being a hyprocrite.
I would argue that until Lelouch kills Euphie he is not even necessarily working to destroy Zero. I mean he does work with Zero to fight the Chinese Federation backed terrorists (it is isn't it?) in that one episode. And after Euphie's death, well I think it's really hard to blame him for wanting to destroy Zero.
I think that "good guy" facade is a part of him and I don't think it's selfish to want to be that person. To me, his selfishness is in wanting to die and not thinking about what that means to others. It's the one example of him wanting to take the easy way out to me.
To me, Japan has always been an overriding presence in his life. One dumb illustration, is Geass opens with Suzaku helping Lelouch to a lookout so they can view Mt. Fuji, the symbol of Japan. I think it doesn't just illustrate their friendship and their innocence but also the importance of Japan to Suzaku.
Re: Some mighty big claims you got there
However even if a 17 year old Suzaku canonically looking back thinks he went into the argument contemplating patricide, he was still 10 at the time and I just don't feel like a 10 year old has the mental faculties to think through this choice.
I do agree that everything is shades of gray, but I think it is obvious from the amount of guilt he feels that Suzaku does not really think this was the right choice.
I see the love as more maternal because of her last request for Suzaku to stay in school and from the way she demands Suzaku love her and the unconditional love she gives to him. She is in effect trying to bolster his self-esteem. It also then makes a lovely mirror and counterpoint to Marianne's death when Lelouch was a child.
What is a reasonable amount of time to effect change? I think to Suzaku if more people felt like him, then things would be more likely to change and I think he felt one person could make a difference. And yes, I think he did envision himself as a martyr and he might have been deluded, but that's not the same as being a hyprocrite.
I would argue that until Lelouch kills Euphie he is not even necessarily working to destroy Zero. I mean he does work with Zero to fight the Chinese Federation backed terrorists (it is isn't it?) in that one episode. And after Euphie's death, well I think it's really hard to blame him for wanting to destroy Zero.
I think that "good guy" facade is a part of him and I don't think it's selfish to want to be that person. To me, his selfishness is in wanting to die and not thinking about what that means to others. It's the one example of him wanting to take the easy way out to me.
To me, Japan has always been an overriding presence in his life. One dumb illustration, is Geass opens with Suzaku helping Lelouch to a lookout so they can view Mt. Fuji, the symbol of Japan. I think it doesn't just illustrate their friendship and their innocence but also the importance of Japan to Suzaku.