The thing is that Lelouch is grounded in reality - this is made visually obvious when Euphemia announces her plan from high atop the Knightmare Suzaku is piloting. Both of them are placed against the sky, representing a dream that cannot be reached. Meanwhile, Lelouch is literally crouched low to the ground, in disbelief at this spectacle and angry at how Euphemia is derailing all his carefully-laid plans. The shot of Euphemia's happy face is eerie to me, like she's a child who is earnestly trying to make things better, but doesn't have a full understanding of what's going on. She is blissful, honestly wanting to help, and clearly very loving towards Lelouch, Nunnally, and Suzaku. On one hand, this is ridiculous to Lelouch, but he also finds himself wanting to believe.
I'm not sure he's overcome it so much as it's just been taken away from him... But we'll have to wait to find out. D:
Lelouch believes in "the end justifies the means" - the fact is, he did use Euphemia, and had planned to use her from the start. He doesn't think of himself as a nice person at all, he sees the truth and acknowledges his sins, and probably doesn't expect to convince Suzaku by spilling all these things. Especially with the way Suzaku is now, he'd just be more determined to fix all the wrongs. Lelouch wants to win Suzaku over, he states that he won't use the Geass to control him, and really hinges a lot on obtaining Suzaku's loyalty. Lelouch is also clearly attached to his friends and tries very hard to keep them separate from the conflict, expressing extreme guilt when they do get involved. Even at the very end, Lelouch clings to the hope that Suzaku will side with him and doesn't raise his gun until Suzaku denies his existence. That one line is what really shatters him, and implies that he's feared rejection all this time. It easy if Suzaku hates Zero, because Zero is not the whole picture. But Suzaku denying Lelouch, his childhood friend, his closest friend in the world? Totally different story.
edit: Agreeing with the above about Suzaku's kindness as a child - that scene where they walk among the dead and little!Suzaku is crying his eyes out is what I had in mind when referring to his kindness. He's a brash, violent kid, knocks Lelouch down when they meet, but backs off in surprise and guilt when he sees Nunnally. When they do become friends, they grow very close, very quickly.
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I'm not sure he's overcome it so much as it's just been taken away from him... But we'll have to wait to find out. D:
Lelouch believes in "the end justifies the means" - the fact is, he did use Euphemia, and had planned to use her from the start. He doesn't think of himself as a nice person at all, he sees the truth and acknowledges his sins, and probably doesn't expect to convince Suzaku by spilling all these things. Especially with the way Suzaku is now, he'd just be more determined to fix all the wrongs. Lelouch wants to win Suzaku over, he states that he won't use the Geass to control him, and really hinges a lot on obtaining Suzaku's loyalty. Lelouch is also clearly attached to his friends and tries very hard to keep them separate from the conflict, expressing extreme guilt when they do get involved. Even at the very end, Lelouch clings to the hope that Suzaku will side with him and doesn't raise his gun until Suzaku denies his existence. That one line is what really shatters him, and implies that he's feared rejection all this time. It easy if Suzaku hates Zero, because Zero is not the whole picture. But Suzaku denying Lelouch, his childhood friend, his closest friend in the world? Totally different story.
edit: Agreeing with the above about Suzaku's kindness as a child - that scene where they walk among the dead and little!Suzaku is crying his eyes out is what I had in mind when referring to his kindness. He's a brash, violent kid, knocks Lelouch down when they meet, but backs off in surprise and guilt when he sees Nunnally. When they do become friends, they grow very close, very quickly.