Suzaku does hate himself. I would never say that he doesn't. But what does he hate in himself? Selfishness: the patricide. What does he see in Zero, a man aiming to do the very thing that made Suzaku hate himself so much? Selfishness. While he may have been aiming to take his own life (if by passive suicide) as Boku!Suzaku, it's not his own life that he wants to extinguish right now. Pure rage, as well as the loss of the person he loved, made that push to externalize his hatred and concentrate it on something else.
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Suzaku does hate himself. I would never say that he doesn't. But what does he hate in himself? Selfishness: the patricide. What does he see in Zero, a man aiming to do the very thing that made Suzaku hate himself so much? Selfishness. While he may have been aiming to take his own life (if by passive suicide) as Boku!Suzaku, it's not his own life that he wants to extinguish right now. Pure rage, as well as the loss of the person he loved, made that push to externalize his hatred and concentrate it on something else.