code_geass ◾ ◾ The Countless Ways to Forget [Gino/Suzaku]

Title: The Countless Ways to Forget
Rating: PG-13/Soft yaoi
Pairing: Gino x Suzaku, Suzaku + Lelouch
Summary: If he clings onto the edge, he's bound to fall. If he climbs over himself, someone else will push him down. Clutching to someone is the only way out. Suzaku POV.

AN: First time writing for them, so it's a little weird. But it was fun, I'm an absolute Suzaku point of view fangirl.

I know exactly what is happening. Gino's blue eyes stare deep into my green ones, narrowed, prepared. His hands grip my shoulders before his lips meet mine. The taste is amazing, but it isn't what I'm looking for. Yet I had initiated the whole ordeal. I had come to Gino first. So I could not back out now. I take advantage of the closeness, wrapping my arms tightly around his neck, pulling him closer. My back touches the edge of the empty room's desk as Gino pushes me down. I don't resist.

Of course, I know this isn't who I wanted. I am a wicked human, closing my eyes so tightly that all I see is Lelouch. But Lelouch, the boy I love, changes into Zero, the terrorist I learned to hate. In the kiss that never seemed to end, I open my eyes again, letting the image of Gino's face, his blonde hair, become a permanent part of my memory.

Because Lelouch is Zero.

Because I hate Zero.

Because I hate myself.

Because now, I just need to lean on someone.

Because I need to forget.

Because Gino is the absolute opposite of Lelouch is more ways than I could count. Because I needed something, someone, before I suffocate myself.